Dutch Lock Down Day One Hundred Thirty Six

[Taking Time After A Rough Day]

Yesterday was a bit rough and I can tell that I’m in recovery mode today as I slept in past my alarm clock and I’m LITERALLY moving slower.

And that’s totally okay.

But first the news:

It’s a little fuzzier to think, too, but I’m taking it all in stride. This is what depression and emotional instability are like – it’s rough in the middle of it and it’s slower in recovery mode, but I will heal and stabilise over time.

What’s new is that I’m able to observe it – yesterday I was able to observe the emotions skyrocket and plummet – saw the beauty in the turmoil – and today I’m watching my fingers type, my thoughts slowly pass, the blog post come together – it’s truly amazing.

I think this is because of all the meditation I’ve been doing since last November, initially to deal with anger issues and then because meditation finally became a daily habit.

It’s nice.

Surreal.

That’s the key, eh?

After the storm, take time to rebuild. Assess the damage. Gather the resources. Rebuild.

Always rebuild.

Just because the fight was lost or the house was obliterated or the family died, don’t give up.

I know it’s hard.

It feels impossible.

I promise it gets better.

Photo by Kelly Sikkema on Unsplash

And do you know why I promise it gets better? Because when you think it’s impossible – that’s one of the lowest points you can go. You can ONLY go UP. It can ONLY get BETTER.

That’s why I promise it gets better.

Don’t give up.

You can do it.

Promise.