And Then I Lost

Yesterday was the third round of this year’s International Speech Contest, the Division C Contest.

I did my best. I was overtime. And then I wasn’t. And I almost started crying. The audience laughed a lot. Both men and women told me they cried afterwards. There were some amazing speeches tho. And I wasn’t in the top three.

This is my speech.

I’m flying along at forty thousand feet. I’m dressed in layers. I’m in the window seat. I’ve settled in for a long seven hour SLEEP.

Then I hear those magical words, “Chicken or Pasta”.

I’m WIDE AWAKE.

Chicken or pasta.

Do I want the healthier chicken or the TEMPTING pasta?

Easy, right?

Chicken or pasta is a simple question. Other questions can be a bit more complicated.

What should I study? What will my career be? Will I date that guy? Will I marry that girl? Do I rent or buy a house? Do I want children?

Contest Chair and fellow decision makers, if you have focus – if you know your way forward, making difficult decisions can be easier.

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Eye Hope That Is All

Just finished with the (multiple) eye doctors.

The relaxed eye (turns out it is only the right eye, not the left) is only turning out slightly (-1 as opposed to -50) and they suspect that my eyes are freaking out because the glasses prescription is slightly off (it used to be -2.50 – now it’s -2.00).

After 40ish it is normal for the eyes to stop being able to compensate for a slightly wrong prescription.

So the next step is go back and get correct glasses and see if the symptoms go away.

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OpenStack Days Poland 2017

I am super excited to introduce guest blogger, Ana Krivokapić, who ran over to OpenStack Days Poland to represent Red Hat as the TripleO RDO OpenStack guru in residence. Thanks so much to Ana for attending, answering any technical TripleO RDO OpenStack questions sent her way, and reporting back on her experience.

A few weeks ago I had a privilege of attending the OpenStack Days Poland in lovely Warsaw, Poland. It was the first official OpenStack Days event in Poland, and only the fifth OpenStack event ever organized in Poland.

The sessions were a healthy mix of high level overview-type talks and talks that went deeper into technical or business details of a particular aspect / project / component of OpenStack. The attendees were a solid mix of OpenStack developers, experienced users / operators of OpenStack, and potential users who came satisfy their curiosity about OpenStack and learn more.

The event was sponsored by a number of companies that had booths where attendees could talk to the company representatives / recruiters, get some swag, or even play video games. For the stats / fun facts enthusiasts out there: OpenStack Days Poland had 268 attendees, 24 talks were given by 34 speakers, and together we drank 86 liters of coffee over the course of the day.

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Eye See What You Did There

Let me set the stage first.

In the Netherlands, when you need to see a specialist or even if you suspect you MIGHT need to see a specialist, you meet with your general practitioner first.

Always.

If you don’t, your insurance typically doesn’t cover it.

That appointment is usually something along these lines. Call the secretary. Make an appointment for sometime later that week or next week. See your general practitioner. Explain why you need to see a specialist. The GP enters the recommendation online, answering the questions each specialist requests. Weeks or months later you receive a letter in the mail with your appointment and a package of paperwork to complete before the appointment.

It’s a long process.

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In The Midst Of A Job Change And

No, I’m not leaving Red Hat.

But.

I am changing departments and slightly changing responsibilities and while I’m not quite ready for THAT post, I’m totally ready to ramble on about this that and the other. Specifically, I’m LEAVIN’ ON A JET PLANE.

To scoot over to Boston for a team all hands meeting.

For two days.

I’ve never flown so much in such a short time and THEN, of course, the speech competition is this Saturday.

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I’m Competing Next Saturday In A Speech Contest

whenever i start working on this particular speech. this speech that i’m doing for a series of contests. this speech that won THAT club contest and that may or may not win the next level of the toastmasters international speech contests, my stomach starts flipping.

the fuck.

OUT.

one of the things that happened while i was competing, in both the international speech AND the evaluator contests, is that i was flipping. the fuck. OUT. and that meant that my stomach was doing that butterfly thing. and that i was sweating ALL OVER. and i found it very difficult to focus. at all. i was shaking almost the ENTIRE NIGHT. even after awards were given and representation confirmed, i was high for hours. and then i crashed for DAYS. because this contest? well, it was similar to how i felt when i used to audition ALL THE TIME. back when i danced.

y’know, professionally.

not with a pole so much as scraping by in that weird modern contemporary way with lots of white make up and silky kimonos and excruciatingly slow movement. there were some auditions that were more stressful and somehow OVERWHELMING then others.

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