Big Breath In Big Breath Out

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Needless to say, life is a bit rough right now.

There’s a lot going on.

But.

I’m trying to focus.

To take things one day at a time and just keep swimming. Baby steps.

Last night P and I both had horrible nights. When the alarm went off – let me take a minute to explicitly state that the alarm was not my normal alarm clock, but the Littles having an animated discussion over the pros and cons of solid food versus formula – when THAT alarm went off, I groaned and asked P if he could help out this morning and he replied that he didn’t get to sleep until sometime south of four in the morning.

Ew.

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Silence Is Golden

Except when it’s not.

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Saturday night I went to a party.

I haven’t been to a party in… forever? Ten forevers? It’s been a while.

And I drank a bit. And I talked with people. And I’d say pretty much NO ONE knew that I’m sick.

And so when I started to get triggered. And triggered. And triggered.

I tried to act cool. Stay calm.

I just kept leaving conversations and finding somewhere else to hang out.

But then the whole party started playing this game, (DRUNK) Table Topics. And the questions themselves were triggering. So when this kid near me, who is not a Toastmaster and has no idea about quietly letting the speaker have the floor, started speaking with me about my twins, I broke all semblance of respect for the speaker or the game and focused only on that conversation.

And when others were trying to shush me, I asked him to join me in the hallway to continue our talk.

So we did.

And I ended up going home around midnight, well later than planned. I slept in. The rest of the weekend was navigating the awesomeness of a hangover plus toddler plus twins plus life.

I thought I was relatively fine.

And then Monday happened.

I got up with the Littles. Got them off to daycare. Normal morning routine.

Nothing to indicate anything was off.

But.

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How To Pass The Torch Without Dropping All The Balls

Spoiler Alert: communication is key.

I’m putting together an abstract with a couple of fellow #DevRel liaisons on how we managed to pass (and drop!) responsibility of an open source community. We’ll submit to a couple of upcoming conferences over the next year and see what happens.

Cause you never know until you try.

We’ll talk about the exact tips and tricks we used to get the knowledge WRITTEN DOWN. What’s one thing we learned from each other. What’s one thing we totally dropped the ball on – D’OH!

And a bunch of other brilliant things.

To My Fellow Collaborators,

I’m excited to live with you. And laugh with you.

To cry with you.

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So Then What’s Next?

Okay, so I’m back at work one hundred percent which means a couple of next steps are happening within the next six to twelve months.

Career-wise.

It’s time to apply to CFPs again.

A few in particular are kickass / relevant / on my radar / wouldn’t it be super keen to do / omgomgomg.

But, here’s my question.

Do you want to see the process?

How to choose a conference? How to write up an abstract? How to ask for feedback?

My super sekret method for WAITING FOR A RESPONSE?!?

My lucky tat?

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Making It Up As I Go Along

P is super sick today, I’m working from downstairs AGAIN because connectivity is absolute ASS at our new house, and I’m officially off of sick leave / maternity ramp up.

No big deal.

Okay, but seriously, can we take a second to celebrate that?

OMG I’M FINALLY ONE HUNDRED PERCENT AT WORK AGAIN

IT’S BEEN LITERALLY YEARS

LITERALLY

YEARS

..

KERMIT FLAIL!! !

Ahem.

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