Dutch Lock Down Day Eighteen

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I was this many years old when I realized WHY fiction and games and shows and such are so fascinating right now.

For the same reason why the sun is brighter and warmer when we go outside. And the same reason why things aren’t just funny, but fucking hilarious. And why sleep is exquisite.

Reality sucks.

The silver linings are utterly precious and when we come across one, we stare at it, making it bigger than perhaps it is, because We Have To ™.

That’s the new reality.

But first the news:

I’m better today.

WAY better.

No thanks to sleep last night.

Writing all that stuff yesterday kept me up all night with ruminations, but instead of going to work this morning, I helped get the kids out of bed and outside and, as soon as I could, I went back to bed.

Not the sleep of depression.

But the sleep of the sleep deprived.

And it was glorious.

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Dutch Lock Down Day Seventeen

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At least I don’t have to think of a new title every day #AMIRITE

Also FUCK YOU, April Fools’.

I mean, what gives you the right to come along in the middle of this pandemic?!? #NotCool

And also happy birthday, A!

I know, I’m all over the place.


But first, the news:

This was one of the news items yesterday, but then I shied away from explicitly writing it out because my brain ran away screaming, the Netherlands is officially extending the ‘intelligent lockdown’ until 28 April which means schools will be closed until May because that’s when the spring vacation starts.

I don’t know why that last part is important, but because of how A’s school works, he’s not headed back to school until 11 May.

But, let’s be real, Warriors, he’s not going back to school this year.

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Dutch Lock Down Day Sixteen

Alternative Title: ‘I Want To Go To School’

Seriously, that’s how we woke up this morning. With the oldest whining that he wants to go to school this morning.

That’s. Where. We. Are.

But first, the news:

There are little signs here and there that I’m cracking up. I started drinking coca-cola instead of sprite. I’m eating candy bars like they’re, well, candy. And when I wake up in the night, I can’t easily go back to sleep.

Cause #rumination

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Dutch Lock Down Day Fifteen

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Two WEEKS, Warriors.

Is it starting to feel ‘normal’ for you?

I think it might be for me?


But first, the news:

I had a nightmare last night.

Which is nice.

Cause the pattern for the past TWO WEEKS has been having dreams and waking up to a nightmare.


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Dutch Lock Down Day Fourteen

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Today was Spring Forward in the Netherlands and, to celebrate, we all “slept in” an hour.

And, because there’s no school or daycare or work for the next who knows how long this will be the first ever and probably last time change that doesn’t absolutely WRECK us.


But first, the news:

It is only SIX degrees here but the wind factor is rather fierce which means that, despite the sunniness, we’re all going to stay the fuck inside.

Which is unfortunate because there are bears to hunt.

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