So Say We All

[Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Eighteen]

Photo by Susan Yin on Unsplash

Grant me Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
and Wisdom to know the difference.

But first the news:

It’s been a rough two weeks – with lots of added stressors outside of the family being sick in all kinds of way – and not all of it are things I can talk about because it’s not my story to tell.

If that makes sense.

Yeah, this is going to be one of those vague posts.

You have been warned.

I meet with my life coach every Wednesday and this past week I cried.

Because I feel so overwhelmed by so many moving factors and, for a lot of them, I have absolutely NO control over them.

“I feel like I need a virtual hug. Or a real hug. Lots of real hugs.”

And the serenity prayer kept trying to pop into my brain but because I don’t really know it that well, my brain just kept giving me the last line, “…the wisdom to know the difference.”

Thx, Brain.

At one point we broke everything down into the two categories, tho – #CanControl and #CannotControl or as I like to call it #LetsFocusOnWarmSocks and #FuckThatShit

Which meant, literally, that I ordered sweatpants, leg warmers, and thick socks to wear when I’m working in my freezing office which is normally just fine, thank you very much, except when it’s LITERALLY freezing outside and the floor is TILE.

It’s been literally freezing for about two weeks now.

It’s literally negative SEVEN right now as I write this.

I also added, as a daily requirement, hugs.

From P and / or the Minions, but definitely required.

And I’ve been getting them.

Even with all the puke.

And I’ve been trying to let go of the things I can’t do a damn thing about. Or have to be patient about and let time pass to resolve. Vague, I know, but that’s where we are.

For the most part, I’m doing SO MUCH BETTER than I was last week.

Managing to take walks again. Managing to get up at ass o’clock in the morning. Managing to take care of myself.

There’s still room for improvement, but I’m focused on the #ThingsAccomplished rather than the #ThingsToBeDone – and the serenity bit helps.

How are you doing? How’re you DEALING with things lately? Are you able to let go of the things you cannot change? The things you can’t control?

How?

Because I’ve got a ton of courage and an arguable bit of wisdom, but my serenity is definitely lacking.