That Feeling You’re Feeling Is Shock

[Dutch Lock Down Day Two Hundred Ninety Five]

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Or surprise or trauma or depression or disappointment or rage or pity.

Me, too.

And that’s okay.

But first the news:

If you need some ideas around self care, please read In Case Of Emergency, Break Glass, but these are my coping strategies and they may or may not work for you, in that case, I’ve compiled a few resources for dealing with shock and trauma.

First, of course, a qualifier – I am not a doctor.

If you think you might cause harm to yourself or others, please seek professional help.

And I love you.

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Welcome To Twenty Twenty One

[Dutch Lock Down Day Two Hundred Eighty Eight]

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Sit down, put your seatbelt on, and don’t touch anything.

Let’s take this one day at a time, shall we?

Sure, it may seem like this year is the answer to life, the universe, and everything, but let’s think of it more like Happy Fun Ball, okay?

But first the news:

Yes, it’s Twenty Twenty One! The year that’s sweeping the world!

Only $14.95 at participating stores! Get one today!

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Dutch Lock Down Day Fourteen

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Today was Spring Forward in the Netherlands and, to celebrate, we all “slept in” an hour.

And, because there’s no school or daycare or work for the next who knows how long this will be the first ever and probably last time change that doesn’t absolutely WRECK us.


But first, the news:

It is only SIX degrees here but the wind factor is rather fierce which means that, despite the sunniness, we’re all going to stay the fuck inside.

Which is unfortunate because there are bears to hunt.

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Dutch Lock Down Day Thirteen

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I’m doing much better now.

Whether it was because I hit a ‘bottom’ or that the funeral is passed or because it’s such a gorgeous sunny day out, I managed to get out of bed, shower, get dressed, and do a little work.

But first, the news:

A GISH friend reached out the other day and asked, “So, you all have been locked down much longer than the US (because we HAVEN’T been locked down AT ALL [stupid])…what have been your biggest struggles?”


I’m used to working from home ALONE.

The kids went into daycare and school and my partner went into his work. I went into the local cafes and the gym every single day.

Now I’ve got no introvert time and kids and partner here all the time.

I’m slowly figuring out how to cope.

Writing it out helps.

I figured out this morning that fresh baked bread makes me SO HAPPY.

I still have a lot more to figure out.

On the other hand, the twins and the oldest are having a BLAST. There’s a lot of confusion, sure, but they get to see us ALL THE TIME and SO MUCH SCREEN ACTION.

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