[trigger warning] What is Trauma or PTSD?

PTSDThis is written ala rumination journalling or free writing where you just write and you don’t think too much about capitalization or spacing or spelling or typos which may or may not be the style this blog becomes for the next few days / weeks while I work some shit out. Also, what ever happened to those monday / tuesday / wednesday daily guide things?

Well, I’m working some shit out. Maybe they’ll come back in a bit – maybe not.

A friend sent me an awesome blog post idea.

Blog topic – how to help someone that doesn’t understand trauma or PTSD to help someone who does..

So there are two parts to that (as I understand it) which is how to help someone who doesn’t understand trauma / ptsd and also how to educate them with what it is so that they can help someone who is recovering.

I usually send people to the spoon theory for what it’s like to have an illness that others can’t see.

But what is it like to have PTSD?

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[trigger warning] Happy Birthday To Me?

superbetterOr “Step One – Self Care”

I recently announced that I’m going to come out of the PTSD closet this Wednesday at Toastmasters Groningen for the capstone project of Toastmasters Competent Communication track.

If you’re in the Groningen area 18 May 2016 around 19:15, we’re meeting at the Launch Cafe. Come on by.

At PyCon Sweden I saw @aspleenic give a lightning talk about MH Prompt:

Prompt is simply a means of encouraging a conversation about mental health at tech conferences and meetups.

MIND. BLOWN.

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Not Exactly a New Year’s Resolution

ma-personal-fitness-trainingI’m back in training, yes, since the first, but I would say it was a new year’s thing as much as a refocus on health. This is something I used to do more often (constantly) when I was dancing professionally and then a bit less often after I retired.

Now that the child unit has upgraded its walking modules, it’s time to recover from the gestation period.

Translation: It’s time to get back into shape after pregnancy. It’s been a year already.

When I’m in training I set a few daily / weekly focus goals for a four week period and adjust at the end of each week, depending on results. Since the first, the goals include:

1. pre workout smoothie with almond milk and whey protein
2. something movement focused for 45 – 60 minutes
3. post workout breakfast smoothie with almond milk, berries, a banana, and whey protein
4. daily meds / vitamins
5. consistent morning and evening routines that include yin yoga
6. 10k steps per day
7. strength training 2-3x week
8. long ass walks 2-3x week
9. no junk
10. tattling on myself with fitness and food trackers

And it’s time for a weekly review. Even though it’s the tenth. SHOOSH

friday day 1:
pre workout smoothie
body weight strength training
post workout breakfast smoothie
morning routine
writing / work / day
evening routine
10k steps!

saturday day 2:
pre workout smoothie
long ass walk with child unit
post workout breakfast smoothie
morning routine
writing / work / day
evening routine
10k steps!

and then something happened on day three where i took the day off or considered it a rest day or something. it was like this:

sunday day 3:
pre workout smoothie
something that wasn’t a long ass walk nor strength training maybe strength training? need to cross reference; i might’ve started recording that day
post workout breakfast smoothie
morning routine
writing / work / day
evening routine

and then i was back on track with strength training:

monday day 4:
pre workout smoothie
body weight strength training
post workout breakfast smoothie
walk child unit to daycare
morning routine
writing / work / day
evening routine

tuesday was ice day when we realized there would be no more outside or biking or walking or anything cause it was insanity:

tuesday day 5:
pre workout smoothie
short walk cause ALL THE ICE
post workout breakfast smoothie
morning routine
writing / work / day
evening routine
10k steps!

wednesday day 6:
pre workout smoothie
body weight strength training
post workout breakfast smoothie
walk child unit to daycare
morning routine
writing / work / day
evening routine
10k steps!

thursday day 7:
pre workout smoothie
walk child unit to daycare
one hour warrior yoga with bob harper
post-workout breakfast smoothie
morning routine
writing / work / day
evening routine

friday day 8:
morning routine
pre workout smoothie
bike to kardinge
child unit swim lesson HOLY SHIT BALLS EXHAUSTING
bike home
child unit to daycare
post workout breakfast smoothie
writing / work / day
evening routine

saturday day 9:
morning routine
cycle to skinpoint
facial and massage cause HOLY SHIT BALLS BROKEN CLAVICLE
cycle home and take a nap
wake up / perogi making / gaming / coke / diet coke / chips
perogi eating / coke
evening routine

i can’t believe i also managed to do the complete evening routine as late it was. but i did! also, my clavicle wasn’t broken, it was just SO SORE from that one hour yoga routine that it felt broken. i couldn’t lift my left arm above ninety degrees and i walked around whimpering all day.

sunday day 10:
pre workout smoothie
body weight strength training
post workout breakfast smoothie
morning routine
evening routine
10k steps!

BAM! Strength training routine AND ten thousand steps today.

I’m a badass mother fucker.