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The doorbell rang.
It was a solicitor. Asking for funds for albino children in Zimbabwe.
And when I pointed out how we didn’t have extra funds until the fall when our oldest goes to school, he wanted to say, “Just two things.”
One, albino children considered magical so they are hunted down and their bones are sold on the black market as medicine like rhino horns.
And two, and this is the thing that got me – that made me say, “Fuck it, I’ve got to help.” two is that since they’re magical, sex with them imbues others with strength and the younger the child, the stronger the strength.
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But I don’t know what it is.
Helpful, aren’t I?
Whenever I’m feeling stressed or anxious or depressed, there are signs. Lately I’ve been sitting on my ass doing NOTHING except watching television and / or eating. At night I chew my tongue so hard that the pain wakes me up. I also have nightmares.
And it’s IMPOSSIBLE to focus.
Now, some of this is understandable.
The site was just hacked. I’m rebuilding it with help (thanks, J!) and it’s coming back together well. I’m even thinking of switching to self hosting cause it looks entirely manageable.
I have six month old twins. In case you forgot. Cause I didn’t forget. Plus the toddler. All three are awesomeness, of course, but DAYUM, das a lot of minions.
But some of it is not as obvious because I haven’t really mentioned it before…
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There are more than a few reasons why I haven’t been posting on here, most importantly, really, is #TWINS.
And the other thing is that I got out of the habit.
But less obviously is that I’ve been recovering from All The Complications ™ and one of the things that happened is that I lost a shit ton of weight really fast. And how are you supposed to talk about that?
“Oh, hey, I just had twins, but look, I’m totally back in my pre-first-pregnancy clothes, but poor me, I’m so so skinny.”
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Still disturbed by the edibles.
Apparently they’re approximately the length of a pea pod at thirteen weeks.
Plus we received more information and I COMPLETELY LOST MY MIND.
There was howling. There was vomiting. There was much snot.
And there was a difficult talk between P and I that Really Needed To Happen ™ and based on how much better I felt the next day, I needed that crying vomitous release and / or that difficult talk.
I still feel Really Intense. Terrified. Worried. But Better.
Okay, so getting specific.
Continue reading “Adventures In Pregnancy: The Pea Pods”
I’m back in training, yes, since the first, but I would say it was a new year’s thing as much as a refocus on health. This is something I used to do more often (constantly) when I was dancing professionally and then a bit less often after I retired.
Now that the child unit has upgraded its walking modules, it’s time to recover from the gestation period.
Translation: It’s time to get back into shape after pregnancy. It’s been a year already.
When I’m in training I set a few daily / weekly focus goals for a four week period and adjust at the end of each week, depending on results. Since the first, the goals include:
1. pre workout smoothie with almond milk and whey protein
2. something movement focused for 45 – 60 minutes
3. post workout breakfast smoothie with almond milk, berries, a banana, and whey protein
4. daily meds / vitamins
5. consistent morning and evening routines that include yin yoga
6. 10k steps per day
7. strength training 2-3x week
8. long ass walks 2-3x week
9. no junk
10. tattling on myself with fitness and food trackers
And it’s time for a weekly review. Even though it’s the tenth. SHOOSH
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