oh, HELLO.

photo-1455692983146-bb54a19f71e0Last night I said good bye to my bestest friend, my zusje, my soulmate – and she flew back home to Atlanta.

Cause work.

And now I just wanna sleep all the time and not eat and have negative thoughts.

But I knew something like this was happening, so these are the steps I took to lessen the blow.

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Cheat to Win

cake-727854_960_720Okay, so let’s catch up.

A recap. Review. Restatement of facts. Redundantly. Repeatedly. Again.

  • Stay up late talking – SO MUCH TO CATCH UP ON.
  • Visit friends and family and eat amazing food and drink ALL THE WINE.
  • Eat cake. Lots and lots of cake.
  • Go to Ariel Stretch class together cause torture is good for the soul.
  • Do an escape room cause DUH. Hopefully we get out. Hopefully we don’t kill each other in the process. Hopefully our friendship survives.
  • Do something spa like. Probably a massage. Cause MASSAGE.
  • Cracker Barrel. Cause tradition. And pancakes. Real American Pancakes. With all the butter.

Those were the goals, but what have we done so far?

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And I Love Me Some Breakfast

photo-1418308050932-c56fa6e5b767A friend reached out in response to yesterday’s post On Life – specifically in response to the section about vacations:

Vacations with toddlers are not vacations.

They pointed out the lack of routines and extra sugar and new experiences completely resonated with ‘not relaxing’.



You go on vacation. And I love me some vacation. Some quiet time on the beach without that thing.. oh, what is that thing called… other people. Without other people. And a good book. And lots and lots of sunscreen. I could fall asleep for hours and take a dip or two in the ocean and read and sleep some more and get incredibly burned and be utterly content with it all.

But that’s not vacation.

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[trigger warning] What is Trauma or PTSD?

PTSDThis is written ala rumination journalling or free writing where you just write and you don’t think too much about capitalization or spacing or spelling or typos which may or may not be the style this blog becomes for the next few days / weeks while I work some shit out. Also, what ever happened to those monday / tuesday / wednesday daily guide things?

Well, I’m working some shit out. Maybe they’ll come back in a bit – maybe not.

A friend sent me an awesome blog post idea.

Blog topic – how to help someone that doesn’t understand trauma or PTSD to help someone who does..

So there are two parts to that (as I understand it) which is how to help someone who doesn’t understand trauma / ptsd and also how to educate them with what it is so that they can help someone who is recovering.

I usually send people to the spoon theory for what it’s like to have an illness that others can’t see.

But what is it like to have PTSD?

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[trigger warning] Happy Birthday To Me?

superbetterOr “Step One – Self Care”

I recently announced that I’m going to come out of the PTSD closet this Wednesday at Toastmasters Groningen for the capstone project of Toastmasters Competent Communication track.

If you’re in the Groningen area 18 May 2016 around 19:15, we’re meeting at the Launch Cafe. Come on by.

At PyCon Sweden I saw @aspleenic give a lightning talk about MH Prompt:

Prompt is simply a means of encouraging a conversation about mental health at tech conferences and meetups.


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