Tag: mental illness

[Dutch Lock Down Day Two Hundred Nineteen]

I’m stable, but lashing out.

Not ideal, but getting there.

I’m oke.

But first the news:

• Too early to say if partial lockdown is working, prime minister says
• RIVM warns of data delays after reporting 8,669 new coronavirus infections
• Covid-19 ICU patient total tops 500 days earlier than expected

It feels good to report a solid step forward.

Continue reading “I’m Oke. Tired But Oke.”

[Dutch Lock Down Day Two Hundred Fourteen]

I slept in a bit. Meditated. Edited the presentation for the hackathon. Danced a bit. Cuddled a bit. Ate a protein shake. And drank lots of water.

It’s a gentle kind of day.

But first the news:

• Last Dutch municipality without coronavirus confirms first infected resident
• King, Royal Family arrive in Netherlands after holiday row; Dutch PM takes responsibility
• Third of Dutch trying to improve their health since Covid

And now I’m going for a walk not because I want to because holy hell it’s cold outside and I hate that shite, but because I NEED to because otherwise it’ll get as dark inside as it already is outside.

Continue reading “To Make Room For Coping”

[Dutch Lock Down Day Two Hundred Eleven]

I cannot thank you enough for reaching out with your words of support.

I wasn’t so much standing near the edge as sitting on it – very much NOT wanting to be there.

Your words were like, “Get up. Stand up. Come on put your hands up.“

But first the news:

• Why is there a legal issue with face masks and quarantine fines?
• The Netherlands starts its partial lockdown to stop second Covid wave
• Coronavirus press conference: Reactions to national semi-lockdown

YEARS ago I wrote down my coping strategies for suicidal thoughts privately in a notebook somewhere. They were more about comfort and touch therapy – cuddling the cat, taking a shower and such.

To be clear, I wasn’t having suicidal thoughts over the last week, but that post was very much a cry for help.

But, just in case I need it, I’ve written down my coping strategies for shitty days.

Let me know if you have others for yourself and if it helps someone, I’d love to hear about it.

Continue reading “In Case Of Emergency, Break Glass”

[Dutch Lock Down Day Two Hundred Ten]

These are the days that I didn’t post because I Wasn’t Oke™.

I just can’t leave them blank. So I’m filling them in, but lightly.

With some of my favourite songs.

Enjoy.

Continue reading “Blank”