I KEEP OVERHEARING PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT REHEARSING AND I DON’T HAVE A FORMAL REHEARSAL TIME BLOCKED OUT THAT I KNOW OF – AM I MISSING SOMETHING TERRIBLY IMPORTANT BECAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE I AM MISSING SOMETHING TERRIBLY IMPORTANT AND I DON’T WANT TO PANIC BUT I AM TOTALLY PANIC’ING AND WHERE IS THE SPEAKERS GREEN ROOM CAUSE I COULD REALLY USE A QUIET SESSION ALONE BUT NOT IN THE HOTEL ROOM CAUSE IN IN THE HOTEL ROOM IT FEELS LIKE I AM SEPARATED FROM LIFE THE UNIVERSE AND EVERYTHING WHEREAS IN THE GREEN ROOM IF SOMEONE NEEDED TO COME FIND ME THEY COULD COME FIND ME AND I WOULD BE THERE AND EVERYTHING WOULD BE OKAY.
I might not be quite as panic’d as all that. The slides are mostly done. And I’ll finish them today. And rehearse this afternoon a few times. Probably in my hotel room cause I feel self conscious about doing it in public.
Yes, I get nervous.
I always have to pee until I walk onto the stage, no matter how many times I actually try to pee, I still THINK I have to pee. And then I step onto stage and I’m flying.
I’ve read lots of articles about how even the most experienced speakers are nervous before they walk onto stage and that resonates with me.
So this is me.
Admitting I’m nervous.
But not panic’d.